Technology

that technological advancements

No matter how much originally noble

If at all

Can be used as acts of terrorism

Against humanity

Should not necessarily deter people from going into science

It seems an unfortunate fact that our collective consciousness

Hasn't grown to keep pace with it

When we've had this wisdom with us for a very long time

that I can see

Keep looking

I'm so tired of this content fight between right and wrong

Between doing what needs to be done

And possibly what I want to do instead

There's a way to walk the line

And that's living in the now

Living in the moment

There's always a win/win

It's just a matter of finding the way how

Life isn't so black and white

In fact almost never at all

It's nuanced

So if you don't see the solution that makes your heart

Light up and happy

That speaks to your inner most depth

In truth and spirit

Keep looking

*****

I say it for me

And yet it's not the way I diologue with myself.

Maybe that's my big problem.

I love to talk

I need to work on my listening

And going into action skills more

Some are the fighters

Some are the philosophers

Some are the artist

Some are the chariots of society

We all have our rightful place to be alive

All of us

No matter what

If you are here

Here is where you are meant to be

One thing only

Life is but one Thing

It is an infinite number of faceted thing

Of the experience

Of being "born"

Or separate from the glory of heaven

But you aren't

Heaven in right here

Right now

It exists simultaneously in this same space and time

No matter who you are

Here's the thing about it

The thing about racism and genderism agism and abnormalism*, politicism**

Is that even their mere presence boils under the skin of some people

They want it eradicated

Completely from Existence

Or worse maybe

Under complete dominion for whatever cause it may be

Like animals (I suppose)

But no one wants to be an animal all of the time

No matter how guilded the cage.

*****************

We are born supreme beings of light and love

All these trivialities are beneath our very essence

And while it may be fun playing some of the games we play

At what cost?

At what cost to you?

To your very soul!

Your very happiness!!

Just return to your true heart

Whatever that may be

Be true to it

Someway. Somehow.

We have to finally figure out how to let each other be

How to lift each other up

Instead of tearing each other down

It starts with oneself

Lift yourself up

And then as much as you can

Whenever you can

In all circumstances you find

Possible or impossible

Lift them up as well

Lift everyone up

They just may need a different glance

To reach back to their heart again


  ***************

I'm just going to let you be

I'm going to try

As sometimes being human I fail

Please try and let me be as well

Really try

And just support me

As I will try to support you

No matter who you may be

That day




*yes being against people that don't follow the "norm".

**the politifying justification of things that are truly evil

I lied

I lied when I said that some genetic modification is ok

Upon further contemplating

It isn't ok

And this is my same stance on abortion

Who is to be the giver

Changer

Judge

Of life and death

On what is "better" or "best"*

Ultimately only God

Although this theory would seem to contradict emergency life saving medical intervention as well

And that just seems cruel

To not save someone if we can

AND

They want to be saved

But I still right now say

That we shouldn't be messing so much with Mother Nature

We should be finding ways to heel ourselves

The planet

To assist with the giving of life

Not with the taking

Unless absolutely necessary and cleared with any other parties involved

The animal gives itself to sacrifice to feed

If asked and let to do so

Ask any native subsistent living hunter and they will probably agree wholeheartedly

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*that isn't to say we don't make changes and Improve the world. It means that we only proceed to the benefit of all. We proceed for the benefit of all life and lives involved. Genetic modification leads to frankenfood. Food we haven't studied long term enough. Food that short term produces bad results.  I talked to a pig farmer who told me himself that his pigs were sick off the gm corn and it wasn't until he started feeding them non-gmo feed that they got better and healthy. The proof is in the science. Science should not be political or corrupted and manipulated for gain, power and profit. Knowledge should be for all. Open source is the only way to go. And if that means our "enemies" use it for gain then we aren't being good fellow earth citizens and negotiators. There can always be a win/win maybe with small compromises for both parties, but to mutually agreed upon happiness as well. Life should not be about the oppressor and the oppressed. I'm so sick of that viewpoint. I'm sorry but I don't want to live that script anymore. I just don't.

Even being sick and in pain feels like an oppression to me

And I'm tire of it

Maybe letting go of caring about it won't make it better

Although I venture to say it has a better chance than anything else I have been trying

But at least I will be happy

Irregardless

I will be at peace

When the party gets going

When this party gets going

Truly going

No one will stop it

Because it won't belong to any one person to stop

It will be in people's hearts and souls

And it will be such a spectacular party

That no one will want to miss it

No one at all

You won't be able to lock them out

And you won't want to anyway

This is what it is about after all

All belonging

Everyone one of us

Experiencing that love we so long for

The missing link we so much crave

That sense that's it's all ok

It's all exactly how it's meant to be

Everyone wants that koolaid

And the great part is

It's never ending

And no one can take that away from you

No one

I don't want to play with you

It's so easy to let the fear out to play

So easy to get swept up in it

All to very easy

In the way the world runs

The way society is

The images we portray and see portrayed

The way we are to each other

The way we are to ourselves

So we must fight

Tooth and nail

With everything we have

To bring our hearts to the game

To bleed love

To soften to the world

To soften ourselves

To let the compassion come out to play

Instead

You're going to get burned either way

At some point or other

Life is simply no easy task for anyone

So let's smile

Let's laugh

Let's dance and sing and play

Let's make this go around

The best we have to give and be and experience

No matter what

Nothing. No One

I am nothing

I am no one

I may have claimed to be

But I was wrong

It's not being disparaging

It's with the deep understanding that

This life is but a window of the soul

The eternal soul

And how I chose to revere that

Within myself

And within all others

Is the only control I have

And I alone without this soul

Am absolutely nothing

And I alone with this soul

Am still nothing; because

The soul can stand alone

Without this facade

The mask

The idiocy of time and space

The soul is beyond it all

And so how can I be more than it?

When I am but a microscopic vestibule

A tiny glimpse of its glory

An infitesimal drop in the neverendig ocean of its current

I am empty without its life force

And with it

I am its magnitude encapsulated

Almost as an atomic bomb

It is everything

If we only grasped that enormous power surging within

Then you would see

As clearly as I do

That I am nothing

This is nothing

I am no one

There is a place of only God

Of only love

Of infinite compassion

Of infinite belonging

Where the true soul calls home

And

We have that within us

We brought this with us

to this experience

Each and every one

And if we could just let that part out

Foster that light

Foster that love

We'd see who we truly are

Who we truly have been

Who we were before

And can be again

We could see that as clear as the glorious full moon in the clear night sky

Please

I just want to navigate upon the breeze

Whether that be the warm summer flower perfumed air or the gust of the torrential seas. 

I just want to be let be. 

Why is that too much to ask?

I'm not saying don't help me

I'm not saying to disregard me completely

I'm saying

Don't impose yourself upon me

Why so complicated

Why is wanting to be loved

And wanting to love so complicated

It's comical almost

I wish I knew

It isn't as hard as it seems

But it involves being open.

Completely open

And it just isn't a place

Most people want to be

I get it

I really do

Sooo

Just keep doing what your doing

And if it ever becomes to much to bear

Come over to love

Come over to full acceptance

Come over to compete forgiveness

Coke over to never ending trust and love

There you are

You will be fine

And it will all be fine around you

Everything

Everyone

Will be fine

Isn't that the best wish we could ever ask for?

Get out of the way!!

some people

Could have it all

Everything they want and dream of

If they just got the fuck out of their own way

But all this self doubt

This panic

This cynicism

This self hate

Or self imposed repudiation

Kills it

annihilates it completely into oblivion

Were you're to blind to see

You even had it

So close

Yet so far



 

I'm just grateful

can't I be that?

Why do people find it so hard to believe

That I matter what

No matter

I can find something to be grateful for

I am still here

I am still alive

I still get to play

*******

When you can see past all the lies

All the idiocy

All the misconceptions

Preceptions

Masks and parades

The farce

Is the beauty

Of life

Of living

At its core

Beneath the falsities

Lies the truth of living

The joy

Of being alive

Of perceiving

Of being perceived

Of living

Of breathing

And sensing

Of ourselves

Of each other

The glory

Of just this thing

We call life

No messiah

I make no claims

I am not the judge

I am not the hand of fate

I am no messiah

I do not even profess to be akin to anyone's savior

Nor do I want to be

I simply would like to be

An example of the truth

My truth

I am not professing to know the ultimate truth

The why

But I'm at a point now where I don't see the question as all that relevant anymore

I know what I know

I will know more when I am meant to

If I am meant to

Until then

If then even comes

I will revel in this

Whatever this is

At this exact present moment

As best I can

And be at peace with that

That is my example

Do no harm

Love all with all your heart

And be at peace with whatever comes at you

Being this

Honoring this

That is my trial

That is the gift I give

(That is the gift we are all given)

That is all I have

All I strive to be

Being human

And deeply fallible

I miss the mark

So very often

And get up

And go forth again

And again

And again

Thankful

For every breath that allows me to chose

To live

To be

Me

So lazy

it's not that I don't have things I could worry about

If I sat and pondered upon it

I could be here for ages

It's that I don't want to worry about it

I just don't

It serves zero purpose

Zero

What's the cost/benefit ratio on worry?

Makes no sense

Show me who u are, and I'll show you who your God is

Can you disassociate God

From spirituality?

God is just a name

The "name" itself means nothing more than any other thing with a name

What we give it

The connotation we attribute to it 

is everything 

Right?

So......

What if?

You dissattributed the name of God to this idea of heaven

Or Nirvana

Instead

Right here

Right now

Attribute

Every feeling that is God

Unconditional love

Unending compassion

All things

All knowing

All enduring

Always there

Always your salvation

The soul of life

Eternal 

Never ending

Encompassing the entire universe

All time, space, beings, matter, light

Capture these feelings strongly within yourself for a moment

Feel the Glory

And.......

Now instead of saying and thinking of the name God when you think of this entity

This power

Replace that name with your own name

Keep the feelings alive

Keep it going 

But now give those attributes 

And

Those feeling 

a real

Tangible place to live

Inside of you

Wiggle around in it

Let it feel the exact same as it did just mere moments ago

Now.....roll around in it

Really get a feel for it

Doesn't it feel good?

Don't you want to feel this every moment of every day of your life?

Do it!!!!

This is Gods plan. 

This is Gods glory

We are!!!!

And until we decide to start living it

Living the truth of our divinity

Every moment of our lives

We won't ever truly be happy

That gaping wound that we have had made in our hearts

From all the pains of birth, life and living

The one that beckons always

The one that people try to erroneously fill with:

Money, sex, power, drugs, pain, pleasure, etc, etc. 

That we ALL see but refuse to face

The one that never gets quite full enough

Never ceases to push us forward

Yearning for something more

Is that voice of our hearts

Is the voice of God

I simply can't express it any easier. 

Get rid of the name

Put all those feelings back where they belong

Put all that glory back where it seeks so desperately to be

Back in your own body 

Give yourself that same unending compassion that "God" gives you

Give yourself that same unconditional love that "God" gives you

And then......

When you're so inevitably full to capacity with so very much (fucking) glory

It will have no choice but to spill out to everything and everyone else

As would God have it to be

Isn't that the whole point of spirituality??

Of religion??

I mean 

Isn't it

And yes I know it's easier said than done

What is it they say?

Practice makes perfect

So 

Keep doing it

Until it's so much a part of your nature 

You won't barely remember not