Let's talk about it

All of it

Politics

Religion

Sex

Let's discuss it

Like actual sentient

Thoughtful people

(Full of thought.......right?  Isn't that what that means if you take it literally)

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These dramas we've all created for ourselves aren't us

Aren't our soul

Aren't our true Devine nature

Aren't our real deep down self

So why take it so personal?

Why feel so insulted 

Opinions are just the fluff of existence

And your opinions about yourself and others

Are the fluffiest 

Look........

Either you are a representation of the Devil

Or a representation of God

Pick one

And stick with it (lol)

All this wishy-washy, when it's convenient for you bullshit

That's got to end. 

Nothing precedes the truth

except perhaps

Honor (honoring the truth)

And courage (courage to speak the truth at all costs)

Until truth comes before

Convenience

Power

Money

Status quo

Fear

Until truth is at the forefront of humanity

Of each and every persons own human struggle

Nothing will change for the better

Because without that as the base

The foundation of our very lives

You have nothing but a sad house of cards

Trans-whatever

Consent

As long as you are

Over 14 and with someone within 2 years of your age

Or over 18

And in all cases all parties are consenting

Then who cares if your male with female clothes fucking rhino's

I don't care

Be male

Female

Male with female parts

Vice versa

Every combination thereof

It's not my concern

Until the point I want to sleep with you

And you are in accord

Then a heads up would be nice

Honesty

Honestly

Works so much better

Having it all out in the open

I think we should all take a good look at our heart and soul. Stop living a life of so much pain and trying to be in so much control.

Give it up.

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No one wants the joke to be on them?

Manifesting

Ok.


So I truly believe


With every atom in the being of my body and all the energy of my soul


That the universe can manifest possibilities beyond our tiny grasp of understanding


If we just let it


If we open ourselves up to the possibilities


To the immeasurable amount of possibilities


And just believe


Open ourselves up to the real belief


That to me is true spirituality


The belief in God


The belief in our higher consciousness


The belief in things like miracles and manifesting and things outside our grasp


Outside our daily spectrum of seeing, knowing and understanding


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So what about famine in Somalia


While I do believe Mother Nature has a wrath which we can neither control well nor quite grasp


She has all the right to want us living cockroaches off of her


We treat the world overall no better than rats treat their own environment


Actually of all animals


We are probably the absolute worst


So much for evolution and being the "chosen ones"


If the fact that we kill each other and our own habitat isn't proof we're just base, moronic heathens


Grasping desperately for our souls to flourish once again


I'm not sure what does


But it's so hard for our souls to flourish in this world


It is almost set up for us to fail that deeply, all so important


Truly what life is about


Task


We were put


Like every other animal here


To flourish


To co-habitate with each other


And our environment


In a symbiotic way


Of mutual benefit


Really not complicated!!!!


And anyone that says so


Is just making excuses


There can always be in this world a win/win


Always.


And we (as sentient beings) have the capacity to help the universe


Make that happen


Or hinder that


You can


Chose your battlefield


Chose your opponent


Chose your strategy


Mark your territory if necessary


Suit up


And go forth


Or


You can shield yourself with the greatest shield of all


And yet be as vulnerable as a new born baby


When you go forth with love


*******


Soften your gaze to the world


Relax your entire body


Breath


Soak it all in


There is beauty in it


There is beauty in you


There is beauty in life


Give yourself to giving


To it all


Not taking


Giving


Giving what is needed


When is needed


Life wants you to play


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I have a hard time coming to terms with famines and


Wars


And with the evils that surround us


When I look at it through the eyes of love


I see the games


The stupid games


And it hurts my souls deeply


But fortunately God


Replenishes hope


And more importantly even


Replenishes love as needed


Indefinitely, unendingly


As much as one cares to draw


When you care to draw it


On tap 24/7


Thankfully


It's inside


But also outside


.................


Look


This isn't about letting yourself be hurt physically, mentally, spiritually.


It's about following your heart


Without judgement


And knowing that as long as you are doing no harm


Purposely


Willfully


Knowingly on any level


If you are doing everything you can


To bring compassion


Love


Acceptance into this world


And you are doing all you can


to see that in the world


To seek that


To forge that


In whatever way


Big or small that you can


Making allowances for our own inherently flawed humanity


Many, many, many allowances of compassion


Then?


I don't know


You must chose your own answer


I've chosen mine.


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Mine is that that is indeed a life well lived


No matter what anyone else may say


I can live with myself with that


And that is after all


Who I seem to be right now ;)_

This bag of bones and this ever yearning spirit

I can live with this little slice of theater known as mortality

And make the best of it

Just make the absolute best of it

Hold your banana buckets

said no blackened skin tropical person ever

And yet

I

Of part Afro-can descent

Say that constantly

And laugh about it hysterically

Because why the hell not

I'm just making fun of the ludicrousness of it all

Of it all sometimes

All so trapped in our stories

Children

The most incredible thing about children

Is that it can be customary for them to say things

That can blow you out of the water

With their truth

Their profoundness

The way they can see far beyond our meager eyes

And then they can say shit

I can laugh at that

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No matter how much you want it to be a him

It will never be

I'm sorry

I'm just isn't.

God is neither male nor female

And yet it's both

At the same time

And no I don't mean transgender

And that you feel you have to fight so hard to protect that falsehood

Is just the saddest (sadist?) part of it all

Not that there isn't even worse atrocities

Born from religious power

Liberated I dream to be

There's two kinds of in use addicts

The addicts that succumb to a drug that is just nearly impossible to avoid addiction to. The kind that even takes your grandma.

Then there's the kind that people just give in to. That they realize they don't want to try and control anymore. Be it food, alcohol, gambling; etc.

At the least. And there's probably millions of versions of coping addicts.

That's the thing. In my opinion. ONLY!!*

Addicts are very sensitive people who have not learned to cope with their own hearts. They haven't learned to follow their heart because their heart has led them so many times to pain.

I heard something beautiful today. Something to the effects of**:

Shoulder the pain.
Give in to the unknown
And watch the miracles unfold
What yourself blossom
Like a butterfly
Out of the cocoon

You can not stop the pain
As long as you are in this world
You will know suffering
Embrace it for what it is
The human experience
Just let go
Let it all go
And then
And then alone
You will be liberated


*I stand behind what I say. Take that however you want.

**actually. Only the first two of her first sentences am I butchering here. The rest was what I was thinking of when she said it. Kinda. Lol

A single dot (point) in time

Every single one of my blogs is a single moment in time in my life. I don't like to revisit them. I am a harsh critic. Sometimes rightfully so. How many typo's and meandering sentences and thoughts can a person take in one blog post?  Other times probably not so much merited. Right? Life is what it is. Full acceptance is key. Accepting what was. Accepting what is. As long as you are puttting in your best effort; life can't come down on you. It has no right to. If you are doing the "right" thing; which all that means is following your true heart (the pure spirit that truly loves everything and everyone) then you're always headed in the right direction. But I read these and sometimes I seen my flawed logic. My meandering. My disclosing too much personal and painful; beautiful and deeply felt.  Sometimes I feel like I've been a bit trite; trying to be too linguistic. Lol. Ugghhhh. Anyway. Point is. These little capsules are a ride  I was/am where I was/am at that exact pin point in time; or revisiting things past by pouring them out on page to the pleasure or displeasure of those involved. Some do represent my core values. Probably most. Probably closer to almost all. It's not that I lie. It's not that I'm being subversive. It's that I am fluid; like water. Ever metamorphosing.  Isn't it metamorphosizing?  Have I been saying it wrong all these years?  Ay yay yay. I believe everything I believe to be true. I have lied to no one. I can fell good about that. As of late I've even stopped with the ever smallest of white lies. No longer will you hear me tell a sick co-worker they "still look good" to try and cheer them up. I'm not sure it ever even worked.

Incest and Rape

i believe


And I've read about it enough


And seen it


That children are sexual


They like playing with themselves


Fingers and


Genitalia included*


Then add to that they are innocent


And naive


Diminutive generally if not in size also in spirit


Not because of strength.


But because of openness


Children haven't build defenses


They don't understand warfare


Against their boundaries


Therefore


Adults and even children


Need to heed that


There is a legal age limit for good reason


Not just arbitrarily applied to whom we chose


When we chose


And the same can be said for rape


In a way


Should it be fair that now that I know I have boundaries


Whoever wants to


Whenever they want to


Get to invade them


Without my consent


Just because they want to


And can


How in the world is that sane and humane at all?


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*i honestly can't remember the first time I masturbated. Honestly it wasn't until my 20's and then only with use of a vibrator; I think. Which I find a little sad. I can't say i didn't like the friction of fingers; because well lubricated that can be an awesome thing. I just don't seem to get too juiced up solo. Maybe. And I didn't have no money for K1; plus never have needed it when I'm with the right man (not being quantitative or evaluatory). Who knows. One could ponder things all day. And though in hindsight a lot of people say they have what they consider 20/20 vision about the past. I sometimes believe it's a lot more about the story people want to believe than the actual story really tells when it tells itself (from all sides); but of course seldom do anyone but the players (and sometimes even not them; through no fault of their own) know what's really going on.



God......bring me

God bring me joy

The genuine kind

That lights you up like a firecracker

From the inside out

God give me ease

Not in The outside factors

But in the inside ones

Make my spirit and heart light

With the tranquility of your love


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May I have the compassion and benevolence

The overwhelmingly palpable feeling of love

 that seems to me to be the root

Of you.......God

May I first learn to direct it to myself in complete acceptance

And then learn to point it to everything

And everyone else.

Human malaise

There is no way to live

In this human carcass

With these emotions

And desires

These needs and habits

These hormones and imbalances

And not feel the depths of the experience itself

And not be taken over by it all

I

I say

I feel

I am

I seems to be the grand adventure

Not good

Not bad

Not right

Not wrong

It is the crescendo of all that came before

Interspliced with the cacophony of all that will come next

Meeting in the quiet of the eye of the storm

Called the now

The ever present

How could my heart not soften and bleed

At the wonder of it all

We are all held in that infinite state of pause

Between our past and our future

The pains and joys we have experienced and caused

And those yet to come

Culminating all into this moment of endless nows

Where it all can change

With the most minute shift

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When we go from the singular and narrow framed "I"

Experience

To the all encompassing "All" experience

That some know as God, Spirit, Dharma, Oneness, what have you

When that not so small shift happens

The world will change

It will indeed chang

One person at a time

Ho hum

Life is a series of disappointments

Stuffed between moments of ease and joy

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I suppose the only  to way to avoid this feeling

This reality

Is to hold no expectations whatsoever

And that is a lofty

And most would surmise unattainable goal

Yet

I truly don't believe it is impossible

Merely that it takes looking at life

Much differently than we have been programmed to look at it

And that takes a shift most people find far too daunting a task to undertake

It is one which I ever yearn to achieve

Embrace the fear

It is from the most raw and vulnerable place

That we are the most aware

That we can experience the most magical moments

That we can truly feel alive

Yes

Life isn't all fairy tales and gumdrops

Rainbows and butterflies

But it can be mesmerizing none the less

If you let yourself be fully alive to it

Have courage

Don't let fear keep you from living out your life

To its utmost

What did you come here for?

It is but one experience

One lifespan

Own it

Enjoy it

Truly live it

God

God

Wherever I am

Whatever I am doing

Whatever is going on

May I always feel you love and light

May I be witness to your Glory

At Every moment of my life

Hallelujah Amen

Ask

ask yourself

Does your self talk make you feel empowered

Does it help you feel good

Does it give you support and love;

Compassion

The truth can set you free?

No roller-coaster

my life

Seems to me at least

To be a meandering slow ride

Wavering between scenic and  boring

(Probably depends on the mood)

With some horrifying, death-defying, jaw-dropping and/or truly majestic scenes

Thrown in for good measure

But if you're not along for he ride

You probably missed it

And explaining it

Doesn't even scrape the surface