When in doubt

Open up your heart

And lead with kindness

It’s hard

It’s the hardest easy thing you will ever do

Because the bounty coming back to you

Is limitless and beautiful

The experience of life

Through the filter of love

Is absolutely fucking magical

Grace

There is this definition of grace (as per Mama Google main page no link - Dictionary feature)

(Noun): the free and unmerited favor of God, as manifested in the salvation of sinners and the bestowal of blessings.

Someone recently called me full of Grace

If they meant it this way

Which I’m sure they hadn’t 

But in the other way

(Which was a very lovely compliment, which made me so happy).

If they had meant it this way

That would have been the greatest honor of all

You’ve won

when YOU have the key

to how YOU

can maintain YOURSELF

in a  place of gratitude (, grace*) and humility

no matter what the circumstances are

you’ve won at the game of life.

You’ve mastered it.

Take a fucking bow!!!


*the free and unmerited favor of God, as manifested in the salvation of sinners and the bestowal of blessings.

Whatever it is

Find a ways to enjoy it

If you could see just how much God is of you

Loves you

Is such a huge part of you

Your soul

If you could see how truly miraculously beautiful that was

You wouldn’t bother with all the trivialities

You would be able to see past the pain

You’re own pain

At the beauty and pain in other souls

 that surrounds you

We are but social creatures

We need each other

And yet abuse each other so

I don’t understand it

I do on a psychology level

But I don’t in an intrinsic level of pure love

There it all gets lost to me

I sometimes can’t fathom how we got to be this way

Why we never rise above it

In this lifetime, this reality or yet another perhaps?

How many realities do you subscribe to?

We all have many many layers

I’m many layers

So yes. I look this way

And behave this way

And demand these things

Which aren’t really demands

More like requests

I just want to play nicely together

Let’s play

This may be the only chance I ever get to meet you

In this life

And I want it to be fun

For both of us

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I can see all sides

It makes life more complicated 

But I wouldn’t have it any other way

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I am still fat Macy under here

I still love french fries

(Should the F be capitalized in French; seems disrespectful almost not to)

I’m still lazy Macy

Where I crave sleeping in like If I was still a teenager

I’ve been and experienced so many facets

That I find them all equally ridiculous and funny

All of them

The only one I find even remotely worth taking note of

Is love 

And pain

Which seems to kind of just naturally go hand in hand

At least in the reality we all practice now

Holiday loneliness

quite obviously

No matter who we surround ourselves with

Or what social activities we do

We each travel this life journey on our own

And this can make us feel a void at times

Which as I’ve stated a few times

Is a void that needs to be filled with a connection to our higher self

A connection to the oneness of all

But the holidays bring an added factor of this sense of inherent intimacy

Which can lead one to feel they are missing out and devoid

If not satiated

I understand that all too well this holiday season

So I am embracing all things love

Embracing all things that make me feel alive

That make me rejoice

And allowing myself compassion for the times I feel sad and alone

Without a significant other to share the beauty of the season

Meme

read a great meme

It said

“She did not nee d to be saved;

She needed to be found and appreciated for who that is”

And this is home to me

A grand slam home run (if need be)

I offer this to any victim that wants it

Male, female or whatever

And also offer up that it all starts with oneself

Not until you can find love and appreciation

For what is there

Can you find the way of making it truly better