Friday, May 27, 2016

Stop believing in time.

Think of time as just a marker. A tool, an awareness that a thing is going to happen. Something that you foresee happening, because you knew that timer was going to go off (for example).

 If you stop believing in time then there is no past and no future. Nothing to be concerned about. We'd live once again like animals. Not in the sense that we are "stupid" or apes (al be it they are highly intelligent animals which is why they are always using them as testing for us, as well as mice). But like all animals; that each seem to have their own miraculous qualities, think of translucent blue blood (like in those stingrays(?))that have such a close structure as ours that they use their blood to test vaccines and other chemicals. Limbs that just grow back, animals that can find their way home a continent away (slight exaggeration?). These animals have no sense of time but they have qualities I would clearly envy (and love to posses), shooting quills into my opponents, being able to have him carry the babies (mwahahahahahaha), beheading our mate the minute after conception (praying mantis?) [maybe only couples that have been married over 20 years get this though] and grant me that this is from a girls prospective. Yes these stand out to me. Forgive me for being a female. That's just what it seems it takes to be perceived as an equal. It takes apologizing for it. Why do you think women in high positions of any field, science, politics, engineering get so sick and tired of it. Imagine having to apologize to everyone everywhere for everything; well at least this one thing (being so smart) and imagine how much harder the pretty ones have to apologize [not only are they gorgeous, they are smart, they're getting it from all sides - women to, or most especially them, I'm sure]. Wow. That was a wide veering.

 These animals don't know of time. You can explain it to some degree (the timer on the cake way), but not on the fundamental level we take it to, they just can't, or at least I hope to God they never do. Because that is what makes us miserable. It's this constant thinking of something that isn't currently happening, while the world (life) IS happening. It's like how you shouldn't text and drive. Why? Because you can only have so many things happening simultaneously and then you are overwhelmed to the point of making mistakes. Mistakes there are no coming back from (up to and including a lot of times.... death). So there are people telling you not to, ads, non-profit "things to know" type commercials, and laws all advising you to pay attention. Pay attention to one thing and one thing alone......driving. Not because your incapable, but because at some point and time you could be and that will be the time you might very well most regret in your entire life. So your only job is to do that one thing, because it is a very serious thing, because it wields a lot of power. And it takes practice in humility (as in humbleness) to wield power correctly.

 Very few of us are a Joan of Arc right out the gate? Which don't we wish we all were? I mean come on? I don't care what they say about that chick. She was fucking cool! She managed to do that, and maybe she talked to herself....wow- so fucking what, she saw images? Aren't those images what led her to be who she was? These things don't happen mutually and exclusively, separately apart most times. They are because she was who she was she was able to do all she did. Don't listen to the propaganda and it's all propaganda. Point is!!!!!!

If you stopped believing in time no one would have any control over you ever. EVER. And isn't that what we want? Ultimately we want to live how we want to live, leave when we want to leave, go where we want to go, see who we want to see, dance when/where we want to dance, sing what/where we want to sing, love who and when we want to love, and be truly, deeply happy. We are fooled to believe that we don't want this. That it's bad to want this. It's not that it's bad to want this. That is absolutely not true. If we lead with humility (with our hearts) we would lead the right way. And how we get there is by being AWARE of the entire situation (of what's going on around us in life- as much as possible, as much as we can know, which when you listen to your heart and gut you'll realize is actually a lot more than you think and probably all you need to know) to make the right choice. And the only way to be fully and completely aware of the situation is to pay complete attention to it. Not let any (think past/present things) distract you from it. Then you will always make the right choice because you will be leading with your heart, you will always be fully in the present. Fully doing what you are doing right this moment, which is living. You just need to be silent and still sometimes to hear your heart speaking. When your mind isn't chatter boxing with what it should have done or needs to do or is trying to do. When your mind is just focused on what is it doing instead of a story of what it's doing then it is one with it all. Then it is truly happy. Then it is in line with love. Then it is no longer afraid, then it is doing the right thing, then it is at peace. When you are just doing life at the exact moment it happens. Living each breath to its fullest. Then. You are truly free

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Feminist who hates modern feminism

I'm a feminist. I am. I believe in my heart that women are equal (if not superior in some aspects, as men are to us). But this hear me roar b.s. is too much for me sometimes. Women beating on their chest screaming let us be equal just seems absurd to me. And being hardened and angry and treating men as they treat us isn't the right way to go about it. I think we have to first acknowledge our equality within ourselves and when we see a wrong against said equality we need to stand up for it. That's it. Not in a harsh, violent way. In the way of a women. With grace and love. With the skills of understanding and empathy that come so natural. We must shine with the power of our love and life. The life that we carry, (not that it was by our choosing mind you) but that we women so deeply understand because of it. We are equal and yet vastly different and still on so many levels exactly the same. That is all it is. And we don't have anything to prove and no reason to prove it. To anyone. Ever. And all this anger and bitterness does is drive people away and take away from our real goal. Doesn't it? How can you lead a happy and deeply peaceful life enshrouded in anger and bitterness, ready at the first sign of injury to leap into a death match?

Differently yet exactly the same. Men have innate qualities which can be used to find their way chivalrously through life, not just towards women but towards all. Men also have an innate sense of understanding and compassion, I've seen it manifest more times than I can say by strangers and loved ones alike. Men also have an ability to see things through regardless of cost, in a tunnel vision, clear every obstacle in the way mentality that women (due probably to the child rearing, multi-tasking mode don't seem to have too much of). This can be a really great thing, that can move mountains (literally) IF the journey they are on is a truly worthy one. Unfortunately men so often feel the need to be loyal, which is a grand virtue when used judiciously, but they seem to honor loyalty even when they know what they are following is wrong. Which is probably why the grand portion of whistle blowers are women. Women tend to see the greater picture and they also (I believe) don't feed into that deep sense of loyalty of an imposed code; maybe partly from not being a man, maybe mostly from feeling excluded from it at every turn. Who knows? Either way. For whatever reason. That's how it seems to be. So. If we all stopped the charades, followed our hearts, used our innate, wonderfully individual talents and virtues towards good (the good we know in our hearts to be true) then what problem could not be solved? Prejudice, misogyny, most, if not all horrors of the world.

The thing I think we have to accept is that society, government, religion and even family/friends have imposed these laws and norms that we as humans, with free will, surrounded by temptation and opportunities at every turn can't seem to obey. And honestly it's so difficult to keep all the balls in the air, all the standards in place, all the different faces in play. It's so much easier to just let it all go, let it all out, follow our hearts. Turn off the voices in our heads and follow what we know is right. That's one thing. One simple thing to do. And I truly in my heart believe that is all we really need to do. That simple thing may just be able to right every wrong. Maybe? Isn't it worth a shot?