An aside

I love reincarnation. 

Life is hard

We make wrong choices so often

We don't go with our heart

For fear

And we do this

Soooooooo much

How am I going to get it right?

How am I going to go into heaven?

If I can't listen to my heartens follow it 

always

I hate that Christians say

That if you repent at the last moment of your life you go to heaven

Yes 

God is forgiving

And sure 

Part of me can believe it

But how fucking convenient

Really?

Let me just pillage, plunder, rape and blaspheme 

And I'll just make sure and hit the 

"Please forgive me"

Button at the end

Few things make me quite as mad as that one (lol)

Instead

I like to believe that maybe we could come back. 

Although why we'd want to is beyond me (lol)

We should buckle the fuck down and get to the work at hand

Instead of lolligaging with the devil

It's just so sad that it's virtually impossible to be yourself 

Without people trying to stop you

Up to and including dying 

It's such a tide to bear

Then add on top of that ones own natural 

Tendencies to ease into

Gluttony

Vanity

Greed

Convetousnous (yes I know)

Wrath

And all those other pesky habits

Ugghh

That the laziness in me

Wants to believe that we get more than one go

That we don't go to heaven and hell just in this one shot 

But.....

I have a hard time believing that when I've seen hell

And reincarnation theory leaves no room for hell

Well. 

I change that a bit

After reading this brilliant explanation

http://info.happy-science.org/2016/336/

Basically Yes. Hell does exist in reincarnation theory but souls can not be born from hell. Thank God for that. Phew

And that appears to correlate with the babies I've seen. Angelic for sure and reinforces my theories quite well. Which is a nice boost. Lol. (Hello vanity and insecurity.)

Part three

Heaven is the most miraculous place you could even imagine

Completely unimaginable 

Because it is literally

Nothing

It is simply and exclusively

Love

It is the best feeling you've ever had

to the millionth power 

You are part of everything

And everything is part of you

There is no here

No there

It is all one

Just one

No male

No female

No up

No down*

And the only way to 

know any kind of separation

To see "yourself"

To take a good look at it

Is to be born into the world

Now. You have no idea what you're gonna get when you get here

(Although some would argue quite convincingly that you chose your own life because that is the life that will most clearly get you closer to going home*)

*Close your eyes

See nothing

There is a faint color of red

A pulsing sometimes

Your veins

The light coming in from your eyelids

It is similar to that. A nothingness

But it is so full of every beautiful feeling you can imagine. Engulfing you

**although I like to think it's trying to show you all that you have left behind (in heaven) to help get you there.