I just wanta love

thats all

At all times

Everyone

No matter what

I don't want to be scared

In fact

I'm simply damn tired of being scared

I don't want anyone to "protect me"

I have guardian angels for that

If I can be the mind of a madman

For just one second

He killed Christina Grimmie

Because in his mind

He truly believed she loved him

Or could love him

If she gave him a chance

Convoluted as that may be for anyone to understand

And when he saw her

He probably realized 

In the split second she looked into his eyes

That she was scared

And

You can't be scared of someone you love

Can you?

The thing is

To us mere mortals

Love is scary

It involves

Vulnerability

It involves

Letting your guard down

And being who you are

Deep down inside

and for one to do that

Every day

With everyone
always
is a daunting task
when you're constantly told to hate
to judge
to fear
to stress
to feel insecure
to "protect" yourself

Who has that worked for?

Do you want to know what

my answer to that is

now is the time

let it go
balls to the walls
be full of love
Yes

Exactly
Be that you
that
Deep down inside you
because
Everyone is someone's monster
and
If you can just be you
And deeply truly accept that
person
then what's to fear
what's to worry about
fear has no hold on you
when you can love yourself
and accept life
and face it all head on
in full and deep honesty
however it comes at you
then no one has got anything on you
ever

but boy is this hard to live every moment of every second of life
it can be exhausting
amid the constant bullshit
to keep ones head afloat
so please please forgive me
if sometimes I don't succeed
because I'm human
and sometimes I won't
but do me a huge favor
if you can
and pull me back
I'd really appreciate it
truly I would
maybe not at that exact moment in time
but maybe, hopefully if not then; very soon
come on help me out
please
no one wants to be on this journey alone

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"Trusty and True" Damien Rice

I'm all for the fly

Ok (excuse my typos, spell check isn't working)

God put everything on earth for a reason

It's the reason animals go extinct

They've reached their maximum capacity either genetically or environmentally

Right?

But not all animals are created equally

They can have the same genus 

And be so completely different to almost be a 

Completely different species

(I mean if that doesn't explain different ethnicities

I'm not sure what would)

Take for example though

The house/horse/fruit fly

Innocuous enough little beasty

Except it Poo's on your food every 30 seconds

What if I told you that was for your benefit

Laugh if you will

But we animals

(Ask your farmer)

Are chock full of worms

That's right

We just are

Because poo is everywhere

On those monkey bars

On that ice from that soda you're drinking

Everywhere 

And just cuz we are all industrialized and shit (mwahahahahahaha)

Doesn't mean it doesn't get us too

And what is natures way of clearing those shits out?

Flies 

They create larvae that does absolutely (more effectively than a condom even) no harm

To the carrier

But empties very effectively the intestines

From top to bottom

Unlike enemas

Via maybe at most minor stomach pains and diarrhea 

But the majority of animals are completely 

Asomatic

Nature really knows what it's doing

Why do we have to go poking our noses into it?

The only acceptable answer would be

To go correct the problems that we ourselves created