Rough week

Makes me feel nostalgic for a time of less stress

Did I have a time?

Really?

No

Not really I guess

There were times of boredom maybe

But never really less stress

Life is stressful

Or it really can be

So I'm learning

Or trying to  master inner peace within myself

To counteract that strong pull

That seems to come from outside forces

Making me waver and get agitated

But I think

If i looks closely

I can see

And sense

That really

It's just me letting myself be carried away by my emotions

And that I don't need to respond to outside forces

In any one particular way

Or at all even

And this

 in and of itself

Provides a great amount of peace

If I let it

But of course

That's one of those

So much easier said than done things

Hard to explain

love is self serving

That seems counterintuitive

Like how is giving love

Self serving

When in its essence

At its core

It is deeply giving

There are truly so many reasons that it's hard to know where to begin

Loving in and of itself is a virtue

To love with no sense of keeping tabs

Or expecting reciprocation

To give with an open heart

To everything and everyone

To live with Gods glory

The glory of love

In every action you do

Gives you such a deep peace

And it also

Has a way of getting you closer to what you truly want in life

Closer than you can ever imagine

It really does make dreams come true.

But not in a selfish way

Because sometimes what life gives us

isnt at all what we thought we wanted or needed

But if we can have faith

That its this way for a reason

We can get past the suffering inherent in life

And get to the enjoying part more



When you look at life with

"Love blinders" on

You'll see

Happiness/peace

Can be possible always

At all times

In all ways

Gods love

Is always there

Even when we can't see it

Even when we find it hard to connect to it

It is there

Reaching out to us

Trying to help us navigate our way

back to our hearts

Always