Blacks, immigrants, disabled

I feel bad for you

But probably not in the way you think

I don't feel bad for your saga

Because everyone has their own soap opera to live out

And boring or exciting as you make it be

As hard or as easy as you let it be

So no

It is what it is

I'm sorry if you don't feel up to the task

Maybe you have to stop "trying" so hard

And just let life be for a change

Be as hard as it can be

Which I grasp

I really do

I'm sorry that I don't feel sorry for you

Some of the happiest people I've met have been in just your same positions

Believe it or not

We are all human

We all struggle

You can't qualify your experience as more significant

Than anyone else's

If I don't count even Jesus as being a person who's

Experience was more valuable than my own

Why would I count yours

This is MY experience alone

I give you 100% credit for yours

And I'm sorry

If you are suffering through it

If you need me

I'm here

I will try and help

If you come to me with your heart first

I promise to listen

And do whatever I can

But I refuse to feel sorry for you

Meanwhile

I do feel sorry

For all the people that judge you

That impose their violations on you

Of how you should be
Of who you should be like

Who the hell are they to tell you

What to be afraid of

And worse even

To feel bad for you!!!!

Then continuing the story of victimhood

No one is a victim

If fate led you here

And not through some dumb ass mistake

Some environmental poison damaging your body

Not you simply not listening to your heart

Then I'm sorry

Those are the breaks

I refuse to feel sorry for anyone

Even myself

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All my complaints are half jokes. Because even I can't take myself that serious all the time. So if I sound the bell....if I ring that town clock. Then is when the sky is falling. Lol

Visualization

Here's the problem I have with visualization

Do I believe it works?

Absolutely

Do I do it?

Can I be a hypocrite and say no*?

Do I think it could be useful?

Sure

Absolutely

No doubt about it at all

But

Like all things

It should be used sparingly and judiciously

No?

I'm grateful to have a way to find my keys

I'm grateful to be able to manage my migraines

Do I need to visualize a trip to Hawaii?

Or

Manifest a million dollars?

Or a new husband?

Um 

No

I really don't

Because I firmly believe

That all paths have their muck in the road

It's inevitable really; because

It's all just part of the human experience

So do I want to spend time and 

Mental resources

Manifesting my every whimsical desire

Me personally; no

I prefer to let fate dictate for me

Where it wants me to go

Where it needs me

Because aren't there always things in play

One is not privy to

The action behind the scenes

I just think that life has a way of surprising you beyond your wildest dreams

When you let it

(When you get out of your own way)

And also I hate to think

That there is even a small possibility

That someone else may have suffered

By consequence of me trying to manipulate/dictate fate in my favor

I'm just a purist at heart I guess

I believe in miracles beyond our capabilities of understanding

That the universe has an abundance

of absolutely anything one could possibly desire

If we could only get out of our ways with our selfishness

Our stress

Our worries

Our fears

And hate

Then we could have that

Easily

Have our every dream come true

Because it's there for us

We don't have to "take it"

It's there in spades for everyone

Always

If we could truly grasp that

That the life we have been led to persue

Through hoarding

Coveting

Pillaging

Raping

Is ass backwards

That it is only

When we put our hearts first

And give as absolutely much as we can

At every single moment

That the world open up

Into the true glory of living

I simply don't see how that is hard to understand

Maybe hard to implement consistently (I suppose....at first?)

But hard to grasp?  Maybe I guess.

I still haven't been able to figure out a humane way to handle fruit flies and they're driving me nutso. So who's to say? Lol

*would you consider praying visualization. I don't know. I pray constantly; for strangers as well as my own family and myself. Is it wrong?  I have to think about that one.