Quora

I've been obsessed wth this website as of late

Answering strangers questions

Who am I? Right

But it's so much fun

The writing is even less intuitive and useful as Blogger's

It's a real pain

But I enjoy the interaction

I enjoy challenging my own beliefs to myself

It's for me thinking a lot about God

my God

And I've come to this basic conclusion

God is like the ultimate tour guide

On this unchartered existence of mine

And the more I let God/love guide me

The more happiness I seem to find

Happiness beyond even my wildest expectations

Now if that isn't positive reinforcement I'm not sure what would be?

God: the ultimate teacher/parent/companion/friend etc

Who knew?

Well...lots of people I'm guessing

But now I know

And I hope I never unknow* this powerful truth

*yes I know that's not a word

Mental illness

I have a mental illness in that I want to trust everyone

And I want to believe them

I want to offer them a hand or a hello or even just a look of encouragement

If only in appreciation for them being who they are

No one is perfect but

Everyone has something they can be appreciated for

So sometimes that has made me a victim in the past

But when I follow my heart

It never makes me a victim

It hasn't yet of course

It's only been when I let ego and fear take over

That bad seemed to always happen

If I  can stand firm

With your heart pulled out of your chest

Offering it up for the taking


In its complete brutal honesty

Then i* can say

It was worth it

Because when you live your life to that degree

Willing to do whatever your heart says is necessary

Then your living out your truth

And no one can take that away from you

So when you're heart says to go

No matter who you will hurt or why

You must go

That's how my marriage ended


*lower case i's shouod represent the entire of humanity and all living creatures and things. Anything that has energy to it. Or more pragmatically; all fellow humans only