Insignificant

I know.

I am nothing

We are all so truly insignificant

in the grand scheme of eternity

in the realm of infinity

we are not even a speck upon a speck upon an microscopic speck

The ripple caused by the tiniest pebble of a soul we have

is virtually unoticable in the vastness

of all that is

and yet

I AM

you are

here we are

We each have a need

to be validated in this role we play

to be accepted

to be loved

and so we roar

we moan

we beseech

we proclaim

and yet

we continue to be insignificant

I can't tell you what to do

how to grasp and deal with such a perplexing dilemma

I can only tell you that when you connect to the vast infinite eternity that is love

God's love

as let it spill over you

let it fill you're every crevice and deep dark passages

let it engulf your every sense

guide your every word

inspire your every action

quiet your every raging thought

you realize that you are part of something beyond measure

beyond all quantification

*****

The easiest way I've found to tap into that source

is through complete forgiveness, unending acceptance/compassion and unconditional love

first towards oneself

and once mastered

it will automatically shine on everything else*

It's not a necessarily easy endeavor....

but it is the only true shot at deep, permanent peace and happiness

that we have

and I can be thankful and live in gratitude for that

knowing that inside me

is all I need to make this life a true heaven on earth

and I am thankful for that

every day is one more day to chose love

to touch the divine

to give my life to the only true calling

to the glory that is living

when we simply follow our hearts




*probably couldn't stop it if you tried

transgender

Part of me truly believes that the majority of the issue stems from environmental disruptors:

GMO's, pesticides, and countless other environmental toxins/chemicals

disrupting our very sensitive endocrine system

and reproductive systems and organs

and another part of me says

so fucking what

be whoever you want to be

if you feel like a woman great

if the next day you don't great too

you want to dress like a woman, fine

why does anyone care?

The Pope calls it a "War against Marriage"

which makes it seem like a giant conspiracy...

(and I thought I was slightly paranoid.  lol)

We are so gungho to keep the status quo going

we are so dire a need of constancy in our environment

a constancy which simply doesn't truly exist

So...

we create a pseudo normalcy to placate the fear life give us

with it's constant change and flux

but if we could just accept this flux and change as a part of life

and not hold so tight to falsities

in the name of righteousnous

enforcing this false constancy with laws and antiquated customs

It must be exhausting to have to cling so hard against the tide