Hide

sometimes I hide

Hide from the feelings that hurt

Dissappointment

Grief

Anger

Distress

Angst

Fear

Pain

Despair

I run from them

To things far more toxic

Than just sitting with them

Letting them be

Letting the emotions come

And wash over me like a giant wave

And then

Eventually

pass

Which they always

But no

I anxiously panic and set myself  into action

And these actions

These remedies

Are far more disastrous than the actual causes

If only I could just bare it

If only I could sit

In stillness

In acceptance

In patience

And quietly wait

For the rainbow

Gratitude

In my memory


We were young. Maybe too young to be left without proper adult supervision. Lol

It was Halloween

We were at the park acting goofy

And a friend pranks the operator through the pay phone

By yelling "happy Halloween " and hanging up.

So they hound me to do it

And I comply

And when I tell her and she can hear the kids laughing in the background

In the most sincere and kind way she thanks me

And makes it sound like she truly appreciated hearing that

And it made me stop a second and re-evaluate the situation.

I did hang up after an awkward pause

Probably only on my part

I guess what I took from it is how there's always room for genuine gratitude in the world.

Always

While I say that

I am not oblivious to the atrocities of the world

I believe our compassion and gratitude can provide real change

To everything going on in the world

If when you

Whoever you are

In whatever life you have

Are called to help

And can do so

Need to do so

Not to your own detriment

Unless of course that suits you

But hopefully it doesn't have to come to that ever

You never know though

Right

You gotta stand for something in life

May as well be your own happiness

And your happiness truly starts in the heart of "All".

In the heart of God

It all starts with......
Compassion and gratitude

We can master this whole enlightenment thing

I firmly believe so

But it starts in a place devoid of fear