We all have many many layers

I’m many layers

So yes. I look this way

And behave this way

And demand these things

Which aren’t really demands

More like requests

I just want to play nicely together

Let’s play

This may be the only chance I ever get to meet you

In this life

And I want it to be fun

For both of us

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I can see all sides

It makes life more complicated 

But I wouldn’t have it any other way

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I am still fat Macy under here

I still love french fries

(Should the F be capitalized in French; seems disrespectful almost not to)

I’m still lazy Macy

Where I crave sleeping in like If I was still a teenager

I’ve been and experienced so many facets

That I find them all equally ridiculous and funny

All of them

The only one I find even remotely worth taking note of

Is love 

And pain

Which seems to kind of just naturally go hand in hand

At least in the reality we all practice now

Holiday loneliness

quite obviously

No matter who we surround ourselves with

Or what social activities we do

We each travel this life journey on our own

And this can make us feel a void at times

Which as I’ve stated a few times

Is a void that needs to be filled with a connection to our higher self

A connection to the oneness of all

But the holidays bring an added factor of this sense of inherent intimacy

Which can lead one to feel they are missing out and devoid

If not satiated

I understand that all too well this holiday season

So I am embracing all things love

Embracing all things that make me feel alive

That make me rejoice

And allowing myself compassion for the times I feel sad and alone

Without a significant other to share the beauty of the season