Whatever it is

Find a ways to enjoy it

If you could see just how much God is of you

Loves you

Is such a huge part of you

Your soul

If you could see how truly miraculously beautiful that was

You wouldn’t bother with all the trivialities

You would be able to see past the pain

You’re own pain

At the beauty and pain in other souls

 that surrounds you

We are but social creatures

We need each other

And yet abuse each other so

I don’t understand it

I do on a psychology level

But I don’t in an intrinsic level of pure love

There it all gets lost to me

I sometimes can’t fathom how we got to be this way

Why we never rise above it

In this lifetime, this reality or yet another perhaps?

How many realities do you subscribe to?

We all have many many layers

I’m many layers

So yes. I look this way

And behave this way

And demand these things

Which aren’t really demands

More like requests

I just want to play nicely together

Let’s play

This may be the only chance I ever get to meet you

In this life

And I want it to be fun

For both of us

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I can see all sides

It makes life more complicated 

But I wouldn’t have it any other way

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I am still fat Macy under here

I still love french fries

(Should the F be capitalized in French; seems disrespectful almost not to)

I’m still lazy Macy

Where I crave sleeping in like If I was still a teenager

I’ve been and experienced so many facets

That I find them all equally ridiculous and funny

All of them

The only one I find even remotely worth taking note of

Is love 

And pain

Which seems to kind of just naturally go hand in hand

At least in the reality we all practice now