Nurturing Me

Sometimes in life you’ve been knocked around enough

And you just are so raw

That you don’t want to be knocked down anymore

I’ve been so strong

I will keep being strong God

For you

With you

I’ve been quietly waiting in line for some miracles

And you’ve blessed me with a great many

But I’ve had to work awfully hard at most of them

And I’m getting so tired

Of trying so hard

I need to put down this weight

It is suffocating me almost to death

I need some relief

Can you grant them all easily

Not always

Hey...I like to put in some work

Loving is fun

Living can be a marvel beyond marvels

I just need a reprieve.

A respite for my soul from the stress

Where are you God?

That I may give it to you.

Stoned musings (again?)

February 2018

Fear keeps them in

Power keeps them out

Well live in a world where nothing is unique and everything must be authenticated.  It’s abysmal this way. 

(I’m sorry if I’ve played some part in this charade. That’s not my intention at all. Just a different perspective.)

We are all unique representatives of God

Maybe a completely different Hod of course. But if maybe we could all agree to be authentic and accepting of ourselves and equally if not more authentic and accepting with others. Under the rubble life has presented us with we are all hidden gems. 

Love is a feeling that you renew like the tide, which each breath of your beloved ones essence.

A society that can have advanced so much in science and technology, marketing and psychology...if all that brain power and same money were put towards the good of mankind all of the world’s problems would be eradicated. All would be solved. 

And I hate to be all One World Order here but sometimes it really does feel like the ties that bind are the ones also feeding us...and I am also being literal as well. 

If everyone in this world used their magical powers for good instead of evil the world would be a heavenly place to live.

The eternal nothing knows the eternal everything 

The difference between insomnia and enjoying the “Witching Hour” is that one one scenario you are happy and it isn’t the first one. Lol

I steer very clear of churches. While I adore spirituality and even wanted to and would still like to study theology. It absolutely fascinates me. God and I. We are right!!  I can’t argue with peoples love of God. That shit is real!!  BUT...I detest the lies, the money, the ego, the wars, the hatred that they can and do inspire. I’ve never found any I could relate to honestly. I don’t mind rituals those are quite fascinating too, but I mind restrictions, hypocrisy and injustice and I’ve never had any religion pass the test. Even the best are usually laden with a thick layer of misogyny or some kind of ism; like totalitarianism just for example.

I don’t understand marriage from a perspective of love. Financially sure. Makes absolutely sense for one of them at least, both sometimes, neither sometimes I’m sure too. Lol
Point is. I look at most married woman and the first sense I get isn’t “cherished”; it’s “kept”. No no no!  I want my marriage to involve freedom first of all and I’m happy with love renewed every day and not just rubber stamped. Hey everyone phone’s it in once in a while. I’ve been in relationships.  Trust me. Overall though. It’s got to be the real deal and that doesn’t have anything to do with a piece of paper.