The pain is real. The reason may not be as obvious.

It sucks that there are selfish abusive people in the world with little regard for others. They will do whatever it takes to get what they want. They are obviously broken. DON’T LET THEM BREAK YOU!!!

The best way I’ve found to avoid not being broken is to not take things personal. At some point though...if you keep getting hurt over and over its time to look in the mirror and ask yourself “is it me?”  As in how am I putting myself in these situations repeatedly. Maybe that needs to be looked at. Maybe there needs to be some healing of my own psyche done on my end. Some patterns I am repeating because they need to be resolved. 

If that is the case. It would help me to recognize that no one can resolve those for me. .  It may feel like someone or something outside of myself is the key but it generally isn’t. The journey is one within. The healing is from the inside. No time like the present to sit down with that and begin.  That is the hardest journey in life. The most difficult task to accomplish. Taking a hard look at ourselves and sitting with who that truly is; the good, the bad and the heartbreaking. 

Chill out

I have got to chill out

Life is stressing me out

It truly is

And I can’t let it

I only get one go on this torpedo

And I’m goinf to live t my way

Or as close to that as I can

I’d rather die in happiness and joy

Doing anything or nothing at all

But I choose happiness

I always chose happiness

I want to always chose love to

Because happiness can be selfish

But love really can not

But that’s not always easy

The way this life is led

In its mad dash ways

And it seems too much to me sometimes

And then I fall to the fray too

And it is so exhausting.

So very exhausting sometimes.