Prayer 1

part of a prayer

What I could remember

As it poured along with my tears

Effortlessly out tonight

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I give you my anger

I give you my heartache

I give you my fear 

I give you my pain

May you be my comfort

May you be my guide

May you be my heart

May you be my strength

May you be my everything 

Fill me with your acceptance

Fill me with your love

Fill me with your joy

I give you my vulnerability

I give you my deepest true self 

I give you my life completely 

Take it all and wash me clean

I keep learning my lesson

in humility

Over and over

Just when I think I know something

I have really got it

It all comes down flat in front of my face

And I get kicked to the curb by my own ego and issues

And I also get so tired of playing these games

It doesn't have to be this way

It can all be divine. Can't it?

I've seen it before.

For small persiods of time

In yoga

While meditating

Definitely while doing drugs

Sex

Looking into the eyes of a baby, young child or deeply loved one.

But life seems to get hard sometimes

So here is where existential me must prove what I believe

Do I believe it

Do I believe my own role

The role I am trying to play

That in my believing that it can come easy

Truly giving myself to that belief

Will really make it so

I don't know

Right now that seems unbelievable lol