Honoring God

Today, as I was cleaning the toilet.... lol, I was thinking again of God, and I was happy in my actions. If I could be filled with complete contentedness cleaning a toilet, then what could not make me happy? If I do everything with love, then everything I do will be honoring God. Then everything I do will make me happy and satisfy my soul.

I think back to the story I heard at a garage sale about a man who had been a contractor. He had been struck with some form of cancer and been put on disability, because he had days he could not even get out of bed. Yet on the days he felt good he... (maybe out of a desire to work, maybe out of a sense of clarity....no one really knew exactly why,) took it upon himself to maintain his neighbors houses. One day he was found repairing a fence, the next mowing a lawn, he was even found a block away chopping down a dead tree. He was performing these actions without the knowledge or consent of anyone. He simply took it upon himself to do what needed to be done. He didn't care for any recompense or gratitude. How divine is that?

Like the Buddhist story of the woman who goes to the temple for her daily prayer and sees a bucket of dirty water and mop sitting at the temple door. The first day she complains in a huff, the second she is incredulous and angered, the third she is amazed and bewildered, the fourth she takes the bucket and mop, cleans it and returns it to the shed. This was her lesson. This could be my lesson, everyone's lesson. I hope I don't have to wait to learn I'm dying to really, truly take it in and live it.

I learned today that I can do the work of God, with every breath. I am useful and needed. I can contribute to the beauty of life in a positive way with a word, a smile, a gesture, with absolutely any act, if done in love. I don't need to move mountains, end world hunger, create world peace. Not to say I couldn't....possibly. I'm simply saying that me cleaning the toilet in love, gratitude, peace and harmony with the world is the most grand yet utterly humble contribution I have done today and if I do nothing else, that alone is to me enough. I'd like to carry that sense into every action, every breath. Wouldn't that be magical.

As it should be

Today, as I was cleaning the bathroom floor, I was thinking that all is as it should be, and that I am not always, or rather mostly, privy as to why things are as they are. The way I see it, things happen exactly as they are meant to happen. So I need not pre-occupy myself asking why or even trying to figure it out. And if I can't have gratitude and acceptance, then I must strive to simply make the best of it. It's kind of nice to know that I have no control, but am here simply to enjoy all I can of every single moment. Squeeze the most joy and happiness from my own personal experiences of life.

Along these same lines, it occurred to me that God, being only love, has complete and total understanding and acceptance of me, for every single thought and action. So how then can I disappoint God, when God has nothing but absolute unconditional love for me. I can not. I believe God's deepest desire is simply to have a connection with me. Similar, but on a grander scale, then a benevolent grandparent, that wants nothing more than my happiness and to share in that happiness. And I think my deepest obligation is only to be aware of that love. I think too, that God is always reminding me, every day, in every moment, of the splendor and joy of life and love. Yet, I am so busy sometimes and out of touch with it, that I do not notice or pay it mind. All the wonderful things that could bring me closer to the divinity of God, things as subtle as the warm breeze caressing my cheek, can go by completely un-noticed. If I could just find time to rejoice in every moment that life has bestowed upon me. How great would my life be?

And I think it would stand to reason that then, this divinity... this joy, would flow from me freely, in every thought and every action. Bringing about the spirit of God through me into the world. Like a siphon of love... the spirit of God. Isn't that what I am truly meant to be?

Yet..... if all is as it should be.... and God accepts me as I am, if God leaves me to make up my own decisions, see things as I wish to see them, then in the eyes of God can I ever be wrong? If God does not judge and simply loves, then why can't I simply keep going as I am going and doing what I am doing and not worry, knowing God loves me just the same? Because I know that in the deepest part of myself I am longing for this connection, longing to feel this love. Because while the love is always there for me, it is my thoughts and actions that open my heart to it and let it flow stronger or barely at all. So when I am in tune to it, when my hearts wide open, I am closest to it, I am connected strongly, and in return my deepest longing is satisfied and I am truly at peace and deeply happy. And it is here, waiting for me, in every moment, in every breath, with no monetary cost, no obligation to anyone but myself....to be open to it. To be open to God, to be in tune with the love and divinity, which is the source of my true self. All I have to do is start using my heart. Which like any muscle, grows stronger with use.

I can start simply. Can I feel the love of God inside of me? Can I feel the unconditional acceptance? The complete understanding, absolute forgiveness, and unconditional love. I’m going to practice feeling it as long as I can. Practice feeling this love every day, for a minute, then 2 minutes.. and so forth.. until maybe one day I can feel it every moment. Would it not be so that then it would flow from me out into everything I do, everything I think, everything I say. This love and acceptance. How could it not? For underneath the muck and mire of what I have been taught to think and believe is the limitless, divine power of love, waiting for me.

Simplify Matters

Here's to me what seems the easiest solution to it all. It doesn't have to be about God. It can be about love. We all know what love is. Love isn't confusing. It doesn't have a million different guides and interpretations, prophets and rules, hidden agendas, or the such. It's just pure and simple love.

One

One simple premise - do everything full of love. If I can't do it out of love, then I shouldn't do it. It's hard....really hard. At present, I can catch myself after I haven't done it.. maybe with time and persistence, I can stop myself during, then before long maybe it will be part of my every day thought process.

I started this morning simply. The alarm rang and I started in on the list of things I had to do, and some worry started to set in. Instead of going with it, like I usually do, I stopped myself. I told myself that I didn't have to think of that. Every thought, every action should spring from love. Worry is not love. So, if my actions follow my thoughts and my thoughts are formed with love, then whatever outcome that unveils itself is the right one. This may run contrary to how everyone generally thinks and behaves, but if I have followed my heart, then I have done all that needed to be done. The best that could be done, and done in the best way, with love.

I think, if the world all worked off of this one ideal, it would be a totally different experience. A more beautiful and real experience.

Let Love Rule

I love this song. I love the thought behind it. I went to sleep last night thinking thoughts of love and gratitude and I woke up and found myself in the same place of harmony and light. Then....the day set in.

So, this blog is my attempt to add a bit of love, humor, or just a different out-take on things. I hope you enjoy it. :-)