Inside Joke

I so much quite often believe that my life is an inside joke that I don't know about

But I've stopped letting that depress or gloom me

Maybe  Hints are shielded from me right now for a reason

Maybe there is a greater cause I am unaware of

I have to give it to God

To find peace

That maybe I don't have all the puzzle pieces quite yet

But I hope and pray that what does come into focus

That I can somehow find some glimmer of goodness

Come from it

And in the highest hopes

I pray that it be full of love

Full of light for me to see ever so clearly

And I wish everyone else the exact same

I hope your hearts opens so wide

It feels almost if it's going to burst

But it hurts so good

Emotional

It's hard not to come of as wishy-washy

When on eis an emotional person

Your thoughts just run away with you

Add in a bit of naïveté

And you have a sail that is lose to be sea sometimes

Which as all sailors know is not the place to be in a storm

Today (as in this timeframe of my life) it's a divorce

Tomorrow it could be something overwhelmingly Devine and brilliant

Life is a spectacle to behold

Good or bad

It's all a wonder to me

I can feel the tug of both sides

The allure of the fight

But when I just follow my heart

I don't feel that tug

So harshly

To do something opposed to myself

To my morals

To what I believe in

To truths I hold close to my heart

Like a fight for liberty

For justice

For the persuit of happiness

You promised it to me

You blasphemous document

As a citizen of your country

And now that the veil has been lifted for everyone else to see

You see

The government maybe at one time wasn't funded enough to go after its own citizens

With military grade equipment

But it is now.

Does that seem necessary to you?

Isn't that what a negotiator is suppose to do?

Diffuse a situation so no crime or violence occurs

Maybe we need more every day negotiators

Not just at bank robberies

As they probably pay extra for

Or have the negotiators started believing the conspiracy theories too

Siding with the robbers one too many times.

I don't know.

That's a funny thought though.

False as it may be. Lol