Unless

Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot,

Nothing is going to get better. It's not. - Dr. Suess

Welcome to your life

To the wild, spectacular, mesmerizing event

Don't get lost on your adventure

Remember you have been blessed with a soul to guide you

A heart to lean on in times of hardship

God's love to always give you strength

And conversely 

You were born to and of the earth

So you are bound to the earth as much as to the heavens

And until we grasp

That we have as much a link to the ground we walk on 

As we do to the God we pray of

We must understand 

That we are intrinsically bound to both

Like it or not

And until we realize that

And start to care

To really care

About ourselves

Our environment 

The people and animals we share this world with

Things will keep spiraling downward

For the earth

And for ourselves

Individually

And as a whole

Unless......

Hypocrisy

we all suffer from it

Mild variations to wild showings of it

All day long really

We simply make justifications

Unwittingly most times

Knowingly very, very few

Which makes hypocrisy probably one of the most common ills of our species

Along with lying and selfishness of course

Hand in hand (most oft)

I try so hard

To not do this

But sometimes I fail miserably

And sometimes I fail without being able to stop myself

This happens A LOT when I'm PMS'ing

And/or in full migraine mode

Where everything and everyone just crawls up my nerves

Where the only solace seems to come from barricading myself in my room

Dimming the lights

And resting away the day

Hormones are a bane

I see the necessity

Biologically speaking.

I understand it

But emotionally

The tirade hormones subject me to

Is at times so difficult to overcome

That's it's almost comical

Case in point

I found myself taking out my pretend gun (index finger pointed) at a driver yesterday that tailgated me

Then proceeded to pass me way too close for comfort and then decided to slow down to a crawls pace.

Where most days this would be fodder for laughter yesterday it sent me in a tizzy

And I shot at them

Which then got my daughter to say what a good influence I was being to the toddler

Which then got me thinking of all the stickers I have on my car of love and gratitude

And how some days

I can't carry that load

Some days I have to take out my pretend gun and shoot someone

I have compassion for myself

Through it all though.

I try at least

Maybe one day I'll learn to best these hormonally caused mood swings

I have hope for that

But.

I recognize also that

I can't entirely blame hormones for my periods of hypocrisy

I have being human to blame for that;

rationalizations.

It's a mind of matter thing really. No?

It takes being always mindful

Always on guard

Always fighting the tide of selfishness

And that unfortunately

Is probably never ending.

I find it easier to stem that tide when I try to come at all things with compassion, acceptance and love

But I'm sure everyone is entitled to off days. Lol