But what do I know?

I understand that there are some horrendous people in this world

That through whatever path they had in life

Whatever pains they themselves endured

They are now seeking and/or deliberating terrible vengeance

On innocent people

That evil should be channeled 

For the good of humanity

And if it can't then it should be dealt with

Are there higher forms of justice than even governments and/or warlords; or rather mere  (all be it sometimes substantially powerful) mortals can try and control

I like to think so 

who judges the judges?

Who makes sure their judgment is not privy to outside and/or self-advocating purposes; stays impartial and for the truly better good?

God obviously

But beyond that self

We all know what would be the most compassionate 

The most humane

The less selfish

the way of the divine

Deep down we all feel that

It's just that most people have closed themselves off to it

Some people almost completely 

They don't ever challenge their mind

Their heart has almost completely stopped whispering its soft song

But while you are alive 

While your heart beats 

And your waves function 

You can always find your way back 

To your true home

It's there

And most assuredly

Only there

That you will ever find

True security

True happiness

True love

I'm always ("still" trying to be) me

Sometimes I feel the need to apologize for who I am 

Or to be oh so thankful and obsequious to certain people because I am "allowed" to be in the place I am

It's fucking exhausting 

And that's just me

I am who I am

Who I was born to be

And that isn't coloring outside the lines much

I am a minority

In a white majority place

I am what some say a liberal 

In a conservative land

But I look fairly average 

And act within the confines of what is societally "permitted"

As a privilege and a right 

And yet I am grateful 

That I do have these rights

Even if some seek to disallow the privilege

Because there are those that do not even have the right to be who they are

When is society going to learn

That society is an oasis

But this oasis has a cesspool

And the more we can shine a light on that

And accept it

for what it is

The sooner we can get to a place where we truly function

Where life is truly happy 

For everyone

I suppose that must first start with one truly accepting oneself

And not apologizing for who one is

But embracing that person

Loving that person

Having deep compassion for that person

And then shining that light on everything else in life

And not needing to do anything beyond that

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Love leads you stupefyingly along

It just has a way of overtaking you

In the absolute most delightful way possible

And letting it is..... simply put; the most marvelous feeling in the world

It's hard to maintain that though 

Life isn't construed in our favor for it to come more naturally

It takes an effortless effort that is truly immeasurable 

There's a lot of ways to it though; meditation, pot, sex, being in love, endorphins, God, on and on. Find a healthy one for you and off you go.