I'm always ("still" trying to be) me

Sometimes I feel the need to apologize for who I am 

Or to be oh so thankful and obsequious to certain people because I am "allowed" to be in the place I am

It's fucking exhausting 

And that's just me

I am who I am

Who I was born to be

And that isn't coloring outside the lines much

I am a minority

In a white majority place

I am what some say a liberal 

In a conservative land

But I look fairly average 

And act within the confines of what is societally "permitted"

As a privilege and a right 

And yet I am grateful 

That I do have these rights

Even if some seek to disallow the privilege

Because there are those that do not even have the right to be who they are

When is society going to learn

That society is an oasis

But this oasis has a cesspool

And the more we can shine a light on that

And accept it

for what it is

The sooner we can get to a place where we truly function

Where life is truly happy 

For everyone

I suppose that must first start with one truly accepting oneself

And not apologizing for who one is

But embracing that person

Loving that person

Having deep compassion for that person

And then shining that light on everything else in life

And not needing to do anything beyond that

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Love leads you stupefyingly along

It just has a way of overtaking you

In the absolute most delightful way possible

And letting it is..... simply put; the most marvelous feeling in the world

It's hard to maintain that though 

Life isn't construed in our favor for it to come more naturally

It takes an effortless effort that is truly immeasurable 

There's a lot of ways to it though; meditation, pot, sex, being in love, endorphins, God, on and on. Find a healthy one for you and off you go.