Deep dark places

I saw my 4 year old

She was sitting on her fathers lap

He was outstretched on the floor on his stomach

She sat backwards

And with her palm softy held half palmed

She was lightly tapping on his penis.

He was wearing soft basketball type shorts

The sight and thought bothered me

And I moved her hands away from him

Which then made her think she had done something wrong

Not on a conscience level

I didn't see any reaction from that at least

So now

Could I have done more harm than good?


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Once you've lived in a world of deep dark places

You can't unlive it

It marks you for life

That's why I try so desperately to live in the moment

Giving light and the benefit of the doubt

To everything and all things

And if not.

Not worrying about it too much

Don't get me wrong

I will always stand up for those oppressed

Those taken advantage of

Those without a voice of their own (literally and figuratively)

Always

But sometimes I still let the past seep in

Or the future (worries) in to play too

And that's always trouble

Or at least so it seems to be

And that's good enough for me

To try at least

To live in bliss this moment

This moment that I can