To be Human

God, why am I so easily corrupted? Greed, vanity, desire, gluttony, I am not impervious.

I believe that you love us unconditionally and absolutely regardless of whatever road we choose. I believe that you have nothing but absolute compassion for each and every one of us and that you know how hard we have it being constantly buffeted with temptations. We are weak and fallible and yet you have nothing but absolute love for us. I am humbled by this thought and feel slightly unworthy. Yet I know that your love is there to lift me, to help me, sooth me, strengthen me. It is here to give me light, hope, and comfort. It is here to carry me through anything life sets before me. That is why I should have no fear. I should have no worries. Would the worst to ever befall a person, befall me, you will still be here. Would I lose everything and everyone, you will still be here. I am absolutely unwaveringly sure of this and yet it is not something I can prove. Fortunately I do not have to because here is where faith steps in.

Is faith programmed? Is it genetic as some scientist now think? Maybe. I don't doubt that it could be. But that doesn't not mean that I still do not believe. We are taught to believe so much in this world: we are taught who to believe, what to believe, who is better, what is of value, which places are better, which things/people/places are worthy. I believe most of all that we are taught is complete and utter rubbish. We are conforming to some agenda pushed upon us that has been going on since before we were born and will continue to reign long after we are gone. From all the crap shoved down my throat I've surmised one absolute truth.

There is a force that lies within me and everything and everyone that gives us life and light. The energy that makes existence exist. I call that force God.

I don't know a whole heck of a lot. I have made, will make, and am in the process of making many mistakes in life. How do I know so? Because I am human. It is part of my fragil and completely fallible life. If I can forgive myself as God forgives me, If I can find love and compassion for myself as God has for me, then maybe all will not be lost.... in this mad, mad world.