Sex, sex and more sex.....just not at the moment.

Wr are animals

We are biologically driven to procreate

Which is why sex is so pleasurable

Right?

Being sentient beings one would think we could bypass this hard wiring 

Yes... we can consciously chose to not procreate 

We can chose to not have sex

But to not succumb to our hormonal ebbs and flows

To not be swayed by our libido 

And its urges

Is a bit harder a task 

And I wonder about that crux

Some would say sex is solely for procreation 

Some say prostitution has existed so long for good reason

Some would say sex is given by God to enjoy; take for example tantric sex

Some say whatever is consensual between adults is A-OK

I don't quite know

I know I enjoy sex tremendously 

I also know how my desire does fluctuate around my hormones 

And that the same sexual studies that prove  women are more sexually attractive to men when they are ovulating 

Prove why I prefer the epitome of the archetype man in my fantasies

While I feel there is no issue with this 

I also feel that one should not indulge to the point of being a detriment to oneself or others

Financially, physically, mentally, and/or emotionally

If one can have a healthy, happy, honest, consensual (adult) sex life 

Then awesome

Go for it!

Full steam ahead. 

There's got to be a balance in life 

In all aspects. 

No unnecessary deprivation

And no toxic obsession

That fine line where it all fits together 

That's where I aim to be

Where I can indulge the lust 

And still carry on a spiritual quest. 

Why should it not be possible?

I don't see a reason why not really

Sex can be spiritual 

Which may explain why I am currently celibate though 

As I strive to meld love, sex and spirit 

I abstain from meaningless endeavors 

But that's not to say I object to others indulging

For who am I to judge

It just means that the desire has grown into something different 

Something more meaningful 

Into wanting something truly spectacular 

Which is what the melding of those theee things mean to me

But who knows. 

We shall see. 

Tantric Sex is on my bucket list 

But so is getting married again 

So are so many great things. 

Life is too short to be boxed in to one thing

One way of thinking 

One way of being. 

I hold to my heart very few deep convictions 

Those have to primarily do with compassion, love, freedom, God, my children. 

But I try to not let my life be led by other people convictions of how my life should be

Which sometimes is harder to do than it should be. 

All that religiousn doctrines and all those social norms

Are hard to escape from sometimes 

And I waver in conundrums sometimes 

Navigating my way to what feels right for me

For my life

In my heart 

For my soul

And sex is A-ok with me