Don't let me die in vain ;) jk

Life can be so confusing

You can meet people that are super judgmental that are very sweet

And yet

One can meet people that are not so judgmental
that seem for the most part

Much nicer

Except when they're being
just as 

close minded
And pig headed as
"those judgmental people". 

So.
What does one do?

The only thing one can possible to do.  

Trust ones heart. 

Pay very close attention to ones surroundings.

Pay even closer attention to those people in those surroundings

Not to be vigilant or militant or on sniper alert

But just to be on stand-by 

so to say

To whatever happens

Good or bad

that it will be alright

Either way
because if you don't know what's going on
how can you decide what to do about it
or how to decide on it
because ultimately
you should have a say as well

The real problem is that
Fear will always lead us astray
from ones heart

So one has to stay strong

To stay on guard against 

the true devil in life

Fear

Which leads to so much 

Bitterness, anger and hate

"Fear starts the show ladies and gentlemen."

So we must stand guard against that enemy
which is truly our greatest enemy of all.

Our self.  

Because ultimately it is ourself 

that let's ourself be led into fear

And how do we stand guard?

We stand in observance. 

Deep observance. 

With no judgement. 

No anger. 

No hate. 

No fear. 

No self-loathing, no ego/vanity

With only love

Deep love

The kind God thimself gives

That's truly the only way

Because once we can figure out how to work

That laser beam of love

Once you try and start to master it towards yourself

You can start to see

That there isn't anywhere

At anytime

That you could not use that love

There is nowhere you can not shine

That beam of love

The black community seemed to know this so well. They used to love themselves and accept themselves exactly as they were.  In whatever position they fond themselves, maybe that is unfortunately a left over from slave days.  Except with time, they've gotten bitter....so bitter. Who could blame them really?  They get jobs, land, education, even the food they have to beg for stolen out from underneath them....over and over. Since they helped forge this beautiful country and off their backs wealth was (literally) created.  How do they get so snubbed yet at every turn.  Those that have given their very lives to fight and serve and love our country?

Don't believe it if you don't want, or go look at a few "correct and validated by many (nobel prized) historians" books.  If need be.  

Just remember. Whosoever own the information owns the world. How does North Korea control all those people so seemingly easy?  Oligarchy, dictatorship. 

We needed wikileaks to make us understand the depths our country is trying to take to control our information?  Even Facebook can't be trusted. Lol. Now that's pretty bad. When reporters are walking off the job yelling that he can't keep reporting "all lies" and then has to recant it as a meltdown (over threats of some kind I'm sure). 

It ain't right that we are now being made to hate Muslims. Over my lifetime alone we have hated so many different people. Blacks predominantly of course, but let's see...because there is no shortage. Russians for their bomb (remember "nuclear war school drills"....fun, Uhu)  Wetbacks! At one time wasn't it Japanese. It was Indians in the very beginning. Who are we fighting these hate wars for?

I stand guard

I refuse to let me

No

More accurately put

Make me

Live in fear

Yes I know.  There are many boogymen & women, monsters, haters, and the such out there, ready at every pause to take advantage of you, do countless evil things to you, kill you even.

But...answer me this....

How many years of not living in fear
of living truly happy and full of love
would equal
to a year of living in pure fearful hell
deep depression-inducing anxiety

How many?

A minute in heaven or hell can last a lifetime.
Which one are you going to live?

"Ave Maria" Schubert is my favorite rendition. I prefer these lyrics.  Version 2- English translation of operatic song  by Pavarotti. These lyrics are what I envision when I hear the song; and honestly I'm not even sure the language of the Schubert version.*

Hail Mary

Virgin of the sky,

Sovereign of gratitude and loving mother,

Accept my fervent prayer:

“Do not refuse,

From this lost person, my love;

Give respite to (his/her) pain!

My scattered soul turns to you,

And full of repentance falls humbly at your feet,

Invoking you, and waiting for the true peace

That only you can give.

Hail Mary!”

Hail Mary, full of gratitude,

Mary, full of thanksgiving,

Full of praise for your God.

Blessed are you among women,

And blessed is the fruit of your womb, Jesus.

Hail to you, Mary!

*I know. Duh. Right? But that's a discussion for another blog.